Hi there
Sorry but I feel I have no one who understands the rotten feelings I’m having and I feel I cant carry on.............and most people will just say ‘he was only a cat’ well he wasn’t he was my friend
Me and my partner mark got Marley when he was 6 weeks old – I’d always had cats at my mums and the home me and mark had made didn’t really feel like a proper home until we got a cat.......
So on Halloween 2007 we got Marley – we had him a year and 3 months before on the evening of 1st jan 2009 he went missing..........
New years eve we had a party at our house and Marley always loved it when we had people round he’d be so social able and getting excited just like the rest of us that it was new years eve – I remember hugging him close to me as the fireworks went off outside – he didn’t seem too bothered though but I wanted to keep him warm and safe just in case
New years day he was around for a bit in the morning – well afternoon probably after the party I didn’t get up till about 2pm – Marley was as usual waiting on the landing for me to get up and give him his wet food breakfast.........he didn’t come and pounce on us early in the morning – he had an uncanny way of being able to tell if we needed lots of sleep! So I came downstairs and gave him breakfast and wished him a happy new year – he looked even more handsome then usual that day.............the last time I saw him was in the house while we were tidying up after the party – then he was off out the window as usual – we all said goodbye to him and joked he was off to see his cat girlfriend to wish her a happy new year! ........... that was the last I’ve seen of him since then ....... the longest 4 days of my life............
Me and mark thought it odd he wasn’t about on Friday 2nd jan morning but figured he was enjoying the fresh new years air.........
Then Friday night came and he hadn’t been seen since the previous night..........I was worried sick already but mark fully believed he would be back soon that he was fine told me to stop being silly and he’d be back – mark still thinks he’ll be back............I asked him how much per cent he thought Marley would be back and he said 90%................
Sat 3rd jan morning – Marley still isn’t about – I go into full on mission mode – I make and print posters, I put him on all the lost cat websites, I phone vets, I even put a poster up at the local church..............everything I could think of...........I was with mark walking the streets for most of sat..........in the icy cold.........which has now given me flu........
One neighbour we spoke to said ‘oh a grey cat, yeah saw him dead on the road over there’.................
Why didn’t I say WHY DIDNT YOU PICK HIM UP AND TAKE HIM TO A VETS!??!!? ............but I couldn’t speak..........I walked as fast as I could to where they said they’d seen him run over...............nothing................no cat...........dead or alive....
Every cat I passed id ask them have you seen Marley?? Like they’d turn to me and speak!?
Insanity felt like it had proper set in by this stage
Sunday – today – no Marley
Woke up around 11am after a restless night
Came downstairs and cried straight away – mornings without him around are going to take some getting over...............I miss just the simpleness of giving him his wet food breakfast...changing his water.........giving him a cuddle then he’d be off for most of the day and back sometimes when mark was home for lunch...........quick cuddle with ‘daddy’ before going back out for a bit.........or maybe staying in and sleeping on our bed for the rest of the afternoon into evening
We have to wait til Monday 8.30am to ring the council to see if he was cleared up off the road..........
We haven’t heard a thing
The not knowing is the worst.......
If I could see him dead or alive one more time that’d really help
If he was alive then great back to normal and turn him into a house cat so this never happens again!!
If he was dead then at least I know he’s dead and I can say goodbye to him and move on
But this not knowing................knowing NOTHING.........i can’t handle that for much longer
I’m worried I might do something stupid
Mark keeps telling me to keep positive
But its been minus 3 to 6 these last 4 nights .............and he ALWAYS came home for breakfast every morning..........hed be int he house 80% of the time............i know something’s wrong but I’m not sure what and the answers don’t seem to come – i fear any answers will never come.........
Please help
Just rung the council – sounds like he was picked up from the road on Friday morning – we are trying to get him back so we can lay him to rest in our own way not the council incinerator!
Thank you for your reply
Well – marley was at the council – so we took him to our vets and hes on his way to be cremated and we’ll get his ashes back in a nice wooden box.......
At least i got to say goodbye to him and see him one last time today
Im sad but not too bad
Just need to sleep now its all sorted and we have closure
Many thanks for your emails
Laura
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